When you’re deep in an abusive relationship, it’s easy to feel isolated. Especially when your partner is a guy that not a single one of your friends likes. Isolation means when you finally get out, you look up and think you’re alone. You think everybody left you while you were trying to dig your way out of the hole.
In the last two weeks so many of you have been checking on me. Texts, phone calls (sometimes from Australia), emails, Skype calls, reading my rambling blog posts…from close friends, old friends, and often from people to whom I thought I was insignificant. Sometimes they were quick notes and sometimes they were surprisingly deep conversations, but they have all helped more than many of you will ever realize. It has helped me remember I’m not the person he so desperately wanted me to believe I was.
In addition to people checking on me, I’ve heard from so many women in private conversations letting me know that they’d been where I was and some that still are. So many women that have told me how proud they are of what I’m doing. These women, and their stories, have done so much to bolster my resolve, and remind me that what I’m doing is the right thing. Nobody should ever be made to feel the way I did. Nobody should live with the threat of physical violence. Nobody should live in fear in their own home. Nobody should ever wonder if it’s possible they will ever be on the receiving end of the love they feel for others instead of the contempt they feel from their partner.
With all of this being said, I just wanted to say thank you. In the last couple of weeks everything came to a head and I was the most terrified I’d ever been of him. I will be eternally grateful to each and every one of you who reached out to let me know I wasn’t alone. Your kindness, love, and willingness to share did not go unappreciated.
I know I’ve posted this song before, but it came on while I was writing this and it’s true.